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This is a personal blog/ thoughts archive and not social media, i get to write what i want and my inability to code and use margins will not stand in the way of fucking up the layout when viewed with anything smaller than ur average ipad

my fustration is doubled nay tripled because i currently have a molar the size of my big toe growing sidesways into my skull but still screw you CSS please just do what i want

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I hate my own language at times (Vietnamese). its rough and blunt, the sentences sound rhythmless and dry. not to say its not a beautiful language. I really like the poetry and pieces written in my mother tongue yet i cant say it something i actively love or feel proud of

This wouldnt be a problem if i wasnt raised so god damn patriotic. i feel like i cannot dislike a thing “forefathers fought tooth and nail “ for me to have . I think from the moment i could understand the words coming out of my mothers mouth ,ive been fed nothing but praise for my home country (it was the first thing iwas taught in preschool when i was 4, jesus chirst)

ive always been taught that i should feel nothing but pride ,that i NEED to love every nook and cranny of the nation thousands have laid their lives down to protect.

This especially applies to language , throughout history my ancestors could not write nor speak their own dialect freely -being a colonized nation and all that . even the introduction of Latin letters by the french into our writing ( a system now officially used) was with the aim of destroying old literature written in chinese characters

With how much gruesome clawing and pain it seemed was needed for me to be able to speak Vietnamese, theres not wonder the patriotic guilt fucks me inside out with a chiansaw . am i ungrateful or is this meaningless and over-compesnsating nationalsim ragebaiting me . Find out next time on uhh scott VS his thoughts

of course im not saying its bad to browse other sites and find inspo but i was so afriad of doing sth wrong in this page that it prevented me from ever carrying out ideas i liked

now as u could probably see uhh i stopped thinking like that and am finally happy with this blog. Sure it might seem quite cluttered and eye-sore-ish but its whats honestly makes me most content. I have ambious plans for this project and no imaginary neocities standard is gonna stop me from putting a 300px by 300px gif of tung tung tung sahur in the middle of it .

Anyways its more rendered now. we finally have a background and links to the other projetcts i intend on finishing later ( my art gallergy and shirnes ).

proud to say CSS wasnt that much of a pain up the butt whilst making changes this time round tho i dont suppose that'll be the case forever

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no one knows how violent CSS makes me, i am a being of light and joy but lock me up with a computer and tell me i cant use "position absolute" to position my items and i WILL BLOW MY SHIT SMOOTH OFF

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- "no"

- " oh thats a little mean, can i at least make this site safe for mobile "

- "no."

being fr tho i really dont have the slightest clue with this coding stuff . i thought i did until i found myself counting pixels to align my "under construction " image perfectly just to find out it fuses into the THE FUCKING intro box when viewed on mobile . A quick google search tells me to ulities the @media thing, but a better solution is to uhh delete the image completely fuck you. ლ(ಠ益ಠლ)

__One page i went to to find blinkies and the code to add em in was suspiously right winged?? i didnt know trump supporters had hobbies i thought they shot guns all day.

__That site also supported AI and most of the blinkies were just "Country girl" written in the pinkest shade you can imgaine but pinker, nothing wrong with the aesthtic i just thought it was funny next to a " PRO LIFE" blinkie with the american flag as the background

_There's the usual critizisim about how its kinda weird that over 8 billion people fit neatly into 9 convenient boxes yeah ok nice one pentagram but this blog isnt dedicated to my pure hatred for this system , at least not in this entry. Amist my fustration over the overly dramatic and vague descriptions that litearlly anyone could relate to, i found it most blaring that tho its been almost half a year i still couldnt type myself in a way that accurately suits me.

_Sure i claim the noble and in my opioin most sexy tritype 826(of whom most people boil me down to an "ageplayer") the title slips more often than not to a completely differnt tritype. im not saying my basic ass is above the system or too "complex", frankly i think im just too shallow and stupid to analyse my behaviours/fears/coping mechs acurrately but many have told me this was just blantant e8 blueprint behaviour whatever that means.

_I can tell most active people in this community are teengares trying to figure themselevs out and in a sense justify and explain their bahviour since they themsleves probably dont understand it. But i dont really give attention to the reasons and pattern behind my actions ,i do the things i do and if they're bad i change them. Not to say i dont make time to reflect ever but i think my 2 year phase with zodiac sings back wehn i was 8 really got the "i like hearing vaguely charatistic traits abt myself bc im intersteing " out of my system (ᵕ—ᴗ—) ]